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Lisa came and got the last of her stuff: tooth brush, comb, make-up, shirts, etc. I tried to get her to fool around (I’m a guy, I’m allowed to be callow and horny, right? ….. right??) but she kept laughing it off. Pretty sure she’s seeing someone new already. Guess I didn’t mean as much to her as I thought I did.

Talking to Nikkov about it makes me feel a lot better. Obviously he doesn’t talk back but it’s nice thinking that someone is listening to me. Comforting in a weird way, I guess. I’m having a hard time outlining a new story even though I had several ideas while I was working on Nikkov’s story. He grew in character so fast I have a hard time not trying to write him into these other, contrasting stories.

That grocery trip turned out great, also. I am so addicted to those little hamburger helper singles packs, I would like to shake the hand of whoever thought that up. I even like the spicy taco ones and I have never liked spicy foods. I think I’ll go heat one of those up now and I’ll tell Nikkov about some of those story ideas.